Who am I? That depends on the role I take at the moment. I am known by several titles including: sister, daughter, mother, wife, friend, pharmacist colleague, mentor, and teacher. And in each one of these roles I’ve managed to play the part much to the expectations of society. However, if you were to ask me who I really am I would have to say charlatan. Over the years I’ve managed to hide behind each of these titles in the hopes of someday having that very question, “Who am I,” answered by God. One would have thought by my mid forty’s God would have answered that very question by now. Perhaps He already has but I’m too obtuse to perceive. So I continue to wait in hopes that someday the great I AM will tell me who and what I am.
The only thing that repeatedly comes to mind when I attempt to describe myself is Revelation 3:16 and Matthew 6:6. I was once part of the Lukewarm lost who didn’t realize how truly lost they were. You see, I never really did anything significantly bad in life. That does not however mean I am sinless. In fact, I can’t think of a single day where I haven’t sin. It is my hope that seventy times seven is only the beginning of His forgiveness. As for Matthew 6:6, I am a severe introvert who would prefer to serve and praise God while hiding in a closet. Many may find it laughable when I make such a contradictory statement compared to what I actually do. I’ve taught and talked in front of hundreds. Additionally, I am quite at home performing before thousands. But to carry on a one-on-one conversation with an individual, a stranger is nearly unbearable.
So it will be terribly hard to explain that I love to listen and observe people. Young, old, male, female, small, tall, any nationally or quirk it doesn’t matter. God’s most excellent creation, mankind, is absolutely amazing, and I am totally enamored by the complex beauty that is the descendent of Adam and Eve. To watch a human interact with the world around him is like watching an animated Da Vinci masterpiece take full form and beauty. Praise God for He truly is the Creator. The rest of us impostors who have the audacity to call ourselves artists and creative are nothing more than pitiful manipulators and copiers of His true creativity. Still, I love to reproduce His creation in drawings, paintings, science, and now writing.
But it’s not acceptable to be just a long distance admirer of God’s greatest creation. I am compelled to do more. God created us for His glory not Him for ours. In 2 Peter 3:9 we are reminded that He loves us more than we could ever hope to understand. And just as anyone would cry out in anguish at the destruction of a Picasso or Monet, I too find it deplorable when someone is lost and destroyed by their own sin. How terrible to see such beauty that is mankind laid waste. We are His creation meant to please Him for all eternity. As an absolute admirer of the True Creator’s masterpiece, know that you are beautiful and you are loved. Come back to Him. He has provided a way home through His Son, Jesus Christ.
Signed,
An Enamored Impostor
Brief Factual Description of Author
Age: I’m too young to meet my Maker and too old to be cool to the Millennial or Homeland generations, in other words, middle aged.
Titles: Wife, Mother, Daughter, Sister, Clinical Pharmacist and Preceptor at Charleston Area Medical Center, Faculty at the University of Charleston School of Pharmacy
Education: Bachelor and Doctorate of Pharmacy from the University of Toledo. Residency in Pharmacy Practice and Drug Information at the University of Kentucky
Church: Gateway Christian Church, St Albans, West Virginia
